WICAKCICAJUJUPI – means Forgiveness
Our ancestors live a balance life, a completeness which our generation might not know. I have searched for years to understand just a little.
Drugs and alcohol have broken our sacred hoop, drastically disrupting the Lakota way of life. I started using very young as a dare really, to prove myself to some older friends, It got out of control fast. Getting drunk and high cause me nothing but pain and trouble. But it gave me a momentary sense of satisfaction. Hopelessness, grief, depression and peer-pressure were factors in my using, but those are poor excuses. I never got in trouble sober, ever.
When I was drunk or high on meth, violence became normal and I became a liar, cheater, thief and eventually caused the death of one of my older cousins after 4 days of smoking meth and drinking. Shattered my family and friends.
This Lakota word is hard to say; WICAKICICAJUJUPI (Forgiveness) and this is my request from my Tiwahe, Tiopaye, and Oyate. I’ve pretty much been in prison since 16 years old, been clean and sober since 2007.
Active in AA/NA daily working the 12-steps, and native sobriety. Today my walk is on the Red Road so my goal is to become a more complete man, brother, son, relative, and friend. As our ancestors were actively balanced in day-to-day life, I too strive for this. I practice drum circle & Inipi ceremony every weekend and am self-teaching myself Lakota language.
I hope to come home soon, but first what I seek is WICAKICICAJUJUPI, forgiveness. Can I make amends to you if my actions have ever affected you, offended you, or hurt you?
Wopila, Mitakuye Oyasin,
Tyler Condon #169865
BVCC/ P.O Box 2017
Buena Vista, CO 81211